Let us start with a morning snack:

Yogurt, oatmeal and banana

 Ha. I can see now that the picture absolutely sucks. Use your imagination. It was great, Target has the best yogurt ever made. I promise you, if you try it you will love it.

After the gym I was excited for this snack. Apparently I am on a yogurt kick.

Vanilla Oikos and a banana. Together obviously.

This was awful. I so strongly disliked the vanilla flavor that I didn’t finish it. I can’t believe I didn’t finish a yogurt that cost me 1.99, but I was cringing after every mouthful. Still, I put it back in my fridge for a rainy day. Not sure why. It will be thrown out in a week or so. Even the banana was bad. I love overripe bananas but this one lacked any banana flavor.

Dinner was great. No complaints there.

This was a great mix of romaine, kale, iceberg, tomato, asparagus, broccoli, zucchini, garlic and a ginger/sesame dressing.

Butternut squash fries

These are so good. I had a few more, but I ate them before they made it to the plate. And I definitely refilled the ketchup pile. I loooovve ketchup. LOVE.

My spiralizer came today.  I was really excited for it, but I wouldn’t say it is fantastic. I mean, I think you can do the same thing with a food processor. Whatever, it wasn’t too expensive so not a huge loss.

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Then I was crying the entire day. Guys, I don’t know. I feel like maybe it was a cumulation of things. My best friend is moving soon. Jenna’s loss really touched me. Someone who I “knew” on Runner’s World died on a 3 mile jog. She was hit by a car. A young 22 year old. Gone. I don’t acknowledge my feelings and then suddenly they build up so much that I explode.

I did manage to get some good food in, but more importantly I did a lot of thinking. My life has to change. I am the only one who is able to change it. I know that exercise is healthy, but I need to have a healthier approach to it. It is not the only thing in my life that gives me pleasure so I need to start to incorporate those other activities to give me a better balance.

And p.s. I suck at taking pictures of my food. I always forget. I’m trying!

So here are a few: 

My morning coffee

And an enormous salad

Shiritaki noodles and steamed vegetables with parm. cheese

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I wish I wasn’t so lazy and got my camera for a picture of my nighttime snack. Sorry. I mean ONE of my nighttime snacks. PLURAL. I have had maybe 5-6 snacks tonight. Still, not full in the slighest. I wonder if my stomach has been kidnapped from my body. Or maybe just my hunger/satiety signals. Either way, it was an opportunity to enjoy some good food.

I was out of ice cream. A tragedy in this house. I am rarely without it. So I improvised, which I am pretty good at doing. I blended 1 frozen banana with cocoa powder. Um, WHY have I not tried this before? Did I ask the same thing with my oatmeal pudding the other day? Maybe, but really, why did I not try making banana chocolate ice cream before? Cheap, easy, quick and healthy.

I then couldn’t sleep. I have insomnia on a regular basis, but notice it is even worse on long run days. Wonder why that is.

Today I did an easy run and a short stint on the stepmill. That thing can make me sweat like nothing else does. I also made the best snack which I was thinking about on the drive home from the gym. I combined 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/2 water, 1/4 cup almond milk, cinnamon, 1/2 a banana and equal (I would pretend like I am trying to cut it out, but that would be lying). I cooked this mixture on the stovetop then put it in the blender. Why have I never tried this? It was like banana oatmeal pudding, er, actually I guess I sort of made baby food. But whatever, it was delicious and I could eat it all day and night. That is my problem though. I get hooked on certain things and simply want to eat them all the time.

I am ready for this semester to be over and for summer to come. I love summer. I love the sun. I love the heat. I am a much happier person when I am wearing flip flops and t-shirts.

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One of my eating disorder behaviors that just won’t seem to go away (yeah, I know I need to be the one to make it go away) is chewing and spitting. It is gross, it is embarrassing and it is something I do on a daily basis. I can’t decide if blogging and reading food blogs will make it harder for me to stop the behavior or easier. I’m hoping easier and that this might be a form of accountability.

Has anyone had success in giving up a behavior like this?  Advice is appreciated!

I have to finish a project for school today and I just realized I have turned into a procrastinator. This is new to me. I used to get things done as soon as they were assigned. Whatever. No biggy I suppose. I still get it done.

I am considering getting a Garmin. Thoughts? I don’t really need one, but I’d really like one. They are a bit expensive though. Hmmm. I shall ponder that for a while.

Hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday!

I came home and was opening the package as I was running up the stairs. Yes, I was that excited about by new purchase. I put 2 tables in a bowl with 3/4 cup water. And waited. And waited. And looked at a gelatinous bowl of seeds. It looked rather unappetizing. I took a bite. It had less flavor than water. Is that possible? Yes, it is. A flavorless gel. MMMMM now I get why everyone raves about this.

Ok. Fine. Not one to give up, so I doctored it up a bit. I threw in some almond milk, a banana, cocoa powder and equal (I love those blue packets). I blended my mixture up and poked a spoon in with some trepidation. It tasted better, but far from good.

Ugh. I tried. And I will try again. Until then I will stick to my little plastic cups of jello pudding that have lots of chemicals and ingredients that I can’t pronounce. At least they taste pretty good.

I’m trying to make myself go to bed earlier. It is now 1:05 am. Guess I’m not starting until another night. For some reason no matter how tired I am I just can’t get into bed at a decent hour.  Does anyone share this issue with me? What is something you keep trying to do, but just can’t seem to follow through to make it a reality?

I will get around to the “about me” in a little while. First I will start with just a regular old post.

Today is dreary and gross. I have wasted the majority of the morning doing, um, nothing. I drank some coffee, read some blogs. I texted a few friends. Yeah, there you have it. Exciting I know.  I predict the rest of my day goes something like this: gym, shower, blog and then babysit. Hopefully I squeeze in homework and studying at some point. 

I read Jenna’s blog frequently and last night when I couldn’t sleep I checked it, not really expecting a new post, but totally shocked that there was….and what it said. Honestly, I am still feeling overwhelmed by what she must be going through right now. I can not even imagine the pain and horror of such a situation. I am really thinking of her today and her family. I don’t really know how to express my feelings about it.